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Post by Escape The Rules on Jan 3, 2023 18:57:30 GMT -5
So almost 5 years ago I created the very successful 'What made you happy today?' thread. I have absolutely loved the daily contributions and am amazed to see it almost at 300 pages now!
But sometimes, the stuff going on in our heads can outweigh the happiness and we don't always have a place to vent which can be quite isolating. So I figured with it being January and January Blues running wild, at least for me, I'd try something different and start a new thread where you can come and talk about things that are weighing on our minds and perhaps even end up getting some much needed advice from someone who may have been in your shoes before in their own lives.
So... What's been troubling you lately?
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Post by TheSystem 1.5 on Jan 3, 2023 19:17:19 GMT -5
Not getting along with one of my supervisors at work.
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Post by vampiroporvida on Jan 3, 2023 19:25:46 GMT -5
A pending move taking me away from my feral community cats and having to rely on others to help take care of them
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Post by sonstuds on Jan 3, 2023 21:03:59 GMT -5
I have to get several shots for an immunization form for college and my doctor is ghosting me.
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Post by Kill Em' All on Jan 4, 2023 0:57:21 GMT -5
Job situation.
I was Correction Officer/Animal Services Officer for the past 2.5 years.
I saw a lot from crooked administrations to first line supervisors, inmate interactions etc. after feeling overworked and not appreciated I left. Also to focus on my goal to work for a police department.
I initially left the jail to become Animal Services Officer for a sheriffs office to eventually become a full sheriffs deputy. Which back fired and forced me back to the jail due to money and other issues. Which was massive embarrassment for me.
Currently I’m in the process of police department. I currently really like my job doing asset protection for Target. Which has helped me get backround in retail theft and security. Cool boss, decent hours, not a lot of stress, little bit dangerous for not having a weapon in a bad city.
However not having the stress of being uniformed political struggle has been awesome. Pay isn’t great and money is an issue with everything in most peoples lives. There is room for growth within target but I’m not interested. Because of the headaches my boss has to take on and I don’t find his pay worth it.
Going back into government service is what’s best career, money, future wise but I do like my lack of stress and not seeing my job as super serious.
Also the stress of getting into that department is big one since it’s very hard to get it with them looms.
On the more economic side. My rent went up; im making less money at my current job. I am happier and not overworked or burnt out. But, it’s not job sustainable to build a future imo.
So dealing with inflation, rise of goods, etc has me very amped up.
I spent most of 2022 miserable. Working 60-68 hour weeks at a time. Being consumed in work politics in job that I didn’t feel appreciated me.
I spent most of this year depressed, angry, sleeping, hateful, and in poor health from what I usually hold myself too
I have very few memories that weren’t crazy incidents from work as a Correction Officer. And my girlfriend who had best year; getting job she wanted; work life balance; awesome co workers; good family time. I’d like to be in her boat or work to be in that boat.
My personal life I think this year will take more lead in life and I regret ever letting work take what it did.
I know to some people this may be crapped on. I really don’t care. Both my dogs are getting older and I’m trying to make most of it and hope they live as long as can be permitted by god. I had health scare with my oldest dog last spring; and that really still has me shook up. She only lived in my eyes due to miracle from god, which is story in itself.
With that being said, making the most out of time with my family. My grandparents who have been my parents since I was 3 days old, are 72 now. Great shape but family is to be appreciated and loved as it is never forever. I don’t want to be holding picture one day regretting not spending enough time with them.
I’m slowly creeping into my mid twenties soon. I turn 23 this year and I use to for some reason as young teen use to always wonder and aspire where I was gonna be at 23. And I’m not at point where I’m fresh out of high school but I’m not at reunion point either; but I think some progress in life needs to be shown at this point. And I’ve done okay, but I’m still looking to what’s next and moving forward a step.
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Post by CM Tusk on Jan 4, 2023 21:34:58 GMT -5
I woke up yesterday with brain fog. It feels like I’ve had a concussion since. My focus and concentration are off. Everything feels blurry and muffled. I’m doing decent at writing out my thoughts but I get lost in them and actual conversation is hard. I don’t feel like me and I hate it.
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Post by finnbalor1 on Jan 4, 2023 21:46:53 GMT -5
I woke up yesterday with brain fog. It feels like I’ve had a concussion since. My focus and concentration are off. Everything feels blurry and muffled. I’m doing decent at writing out my thoughts but I get lost in them and actual conversation is hard. I don’t feel like me and I hate it. I hope you feel better man,that's sounds awful |
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Post by CM Tusk on Jan 4, 2023 21:53:47 GMT -5
I woke up yesterday with brain fog. It feels like I’ve had a concussion since. My focus and concentration are off. Everything feels blurry and muffled. I’m doing decent at writing out my thoughts but I get lost in them and actual conversation is hard. I don’t feel like me and I hate it. I hope you feel better man,that's sounds awful Thanks! Definitely one of the worst feelings. I’ve had it before and it lasted a week. |
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Post by finnbalor1 on Jan 4, 2023 21:57:29 GMT -5
I hope you feel better man,that's sounds awful Thanks! Definitely one of the worst feelings. I’ve had it before and it lasted a week. I guess its at least a end in sight but its sucks you gotta go through that for possibility a week. Hopefully its shorter this time around. |
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Post by JC Motors on Jan 6, 2023 15:42:59 GMT -5
My former employer is selling their business. I'm worried that a lot of the people who have been there when it was under different names will still have a job there once the deal is finalized
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Post by Stuart? on Jan 7, 2023 19:47:00 GMT -5
I used to work with this girl for about a year and a half, had a thing for her for a good chunk of that time and we were good friends (in the office). I never pursued anything because we were coworkers and I know that can get messy if it's handled poorly. Things were good as they were and I didn't wanna risk messing it up and the fact that she was moving to London for a new job in January.
She left the company at the end of the summer last year and I got a new job too, we talked every now and then for a while but haven't spoken in a couple months. I guess never getting that closure to tell her how I felt has been bugging me knowing it's around the time she'll be getting ready to move. Seems pointless to do it now, always gonna be one of those what if? scenarios for me.
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Post by Kill Em' All on Jan 7, 2023 21:47:11 GMT -5
I used to work with this girl for about a year and a half, had a thing for her for a good chunk of that time and we were good friends (in the office). I never pursued anything because we were coworkers and I know that can get messy if it's handled poorly. Things were good as they were and I didn't wanna risk messing it up and the fact that she was moving to London for a new job in January. She left the company at the end of the summer last year and I got a new job too, we talked every now and then for a while but haven't spoken in a couple months. I guess never getting that closure to tell her how I felt has been bugging me knowing it's around the time she'll be getting ready to move. Seems pointless to do it now, always gonna be one of those what if? scenarios for me. I know that feeling man; a lot of times us as men never realize or capitalize on women that were around us in certain points in our life. Fear of rejection and second guessing sucks. Where is she moving?? |
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Post by ~*Young $ Money*~ on Jan 8, 2023 8:38:31 GMT -5
I could write a book.
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Post by saintegenevieve on Jan 9, 2023 20:45:37 GMT -5
Two days ago felt like I was in one of the 7 Stages of Hell for my work. It worked out only after 16 hours of mentally cursing out the Heavens as if all of their assistance has been one sick Zorastrian joke. When the answer dawned on me or was given to me - not sure what - I was beyond exhausted to continue. Like a dog, I had to be put down. It was a resentful experience, and I apologized profusely. I felt demonically possessed
It's working out now. Just solving a Greek issue that actually makes my job much easier, but it's contingent on other issues. It was quite an experience.
Other than that, I'm pretty removed and sheltered from society.
Oh, my mom told me a lot of stuff yesterday that did bug me a bit. It was pretty violent. I asked her about that because she didn't know that my earliest memory of life was my dad destroying a lot of glass and strangling her. I hit him for it. She corrected some of my memories like of a social worker coming to the home. She said that was at my brother's elementary school. She walked on glass and took me to my room. Neither neighbors nor cops came by. She was bleeding on her feet from the glass as she went to the school. The social worker tried to get her to press charges. She refused, thinking we'd be taken to foster care. The social worker saw her bleeding all over her feet. My brother had to translate English for her when he was in the 1st grade
I guess I never realized that my dad was a demented psychopath who taunted her in Germany, but she had enough French friends there where he backed off after throwing her off the bed when she was 8 months pregnant with my brother. He never acted that way in France, but taunted her that her dad wasn't there to protect her now. In the US, he threatened her often with having her deported and us in foster care
I'm not emotional and resented my mother for much of my life. I wish she had told me. She kept that stuff from me and carried on with her life. But that's really sad. I told her that it is true that I'm bailing him out. Yes, he never wanted me, which was fine by me. That has nothing to do with me. However, had I not been born, no one would be bailing him out. He now owes me, even if I'm not putting stipulations on him. Through the act of Mercy, his conscience shall wither away. She did qualify that had I known what he did to her and the ways in which he traumatized my brother, who did take out a lot of violence on me later on, I never would have bailed him out. (I'm not sure that's true.)
I guess I now get her a lot more than I used to.
My mother and I are a lot alike, very much like nuns. What really made me disgusted was my dad trying to turn her into some kind of sex slave. She refused. The woman for whom he left, driving across the country and then back to bring the home wrecker into our town that led to the divorce, was gladly his sex slave. I've dealt with guys who'd demand that I wear makeup and wear slutty things. I'll never do that. I'll continue to dress professionally.
My dad is debased. I'm going to do what I've always done. Just listen like a spy, where he can't read my body language or emotions, KGB style, until I find a weak point, then destroy his soul. Hope he sees a priest on his death bed. I'll give him my rosary. Without Saint Martin, I might not have helped him
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Post by Mongo Bears on Jan 10, 2023 18:36:08 GMT -5
Hypochondria
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Post by attidudanalagression on Jan 10, 2023 23:59:58 GMT -5
I woke up yesterday with brain fog. It feels like I’ve had a concussion since. My focus and concentration are off. Everything feels blurry and muffled. I’m doing decent at writing out my thoughts but I get lost in them and actual conversation is hard. I don’t feel like me and I hate it. I’ve had like 9 diagnosed concussions. A few more I just dealt with. Once internal bleeding in the brain. It won’t fix everything but drink more water than you even want to. It helps me feel more clear headed. Drinking the suggested eight glasses isn’t enough. I also swear sugar gives me terrible headaches and brain fig the next day, beside the obvious noise and light complications that come with PCS. If you ever wanna vent about head stuff I’m here to listen and share so you know you aren’t alone brother! |
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Post by attidudanalagression on Jan 11, 2023 0:03:52 GMT -5
Well I work construction for a pool company at the moment. Lots of manual labor; moving dirt , leveling lawns, pick up huge slabs of rock for the masons. And I’m suffering from tendinitis or a fractured wrist I believe from digging and hitting rocks. This is really affecting my ability to get hours. I also have three unpaid tickets on top of regular monthly expenses (ren, insurance, etc). And I have to pay those before I get my license renewed next month. Agghhhhhhh so much going on. Gotta love being 23 figuring crap out  |
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Post by Scott! on Jan 11, 2023 0:31:52 GMT -5
My sleep pattern right now has gotten bad again. I don't know why but I have this fear that I won't wake up early so I have to stay up all night in a way to be sure I'll be up. It's making me not want to sleep, which is a weird thing to say but then again I am replying to this at half 5 in the morning so I guess it's a thing.
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saintegenevieve
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Post by saintegenevieve on Jan 11, 2023 6:21:02 GMT -5
My sleep pattern right now has gotten bad again. I don't know why but I have this fear that I won't wake up early so I have to stay up all night in a way to be sure I'll be up. It's making me not want to sleep, which is a weird thing to say but then again I am replying to this at half 5 in the morning so I guess it's a thing. Look up Delayed Sleep Phase Disorder. I got an exorcism for it that worked. Others can use melatonin. I use Xanax on rare occasions to sleep. I can definitely relate to this one |
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Post by Crossfit Jesus on Jan 11, 2023 14:29:43 GMT -5
My job, hopelessness, etc.
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