Post by Calvin on Feb 2, 2007 19:45:37 GMT -5
THE REBUILDING PROCESS: PART ONE
The Disappearance
Ever since his loss, Calvin Lee has not been seen. No one knows where he went. No one knows why he left, they all assume it has to deal with his losing to Kurt Burton. They have no idea where he went, and when he will be back. He’s been lost in his mind. Lost in his soul. He has no idea what went wrong. He has no idea why he lost. Or how he lost. He just knows he lost. He’s out on a quest to rebuild himself. And he’s starting out this rebuilding process in the mind first.
A room. Obviously. This room is rather small, but not too small. Looking out to the left, there is a gigantic shelf. This shelf is full of books. It stretches all the way down the left wall. From one end to the other. All of books. Following the book shelf, to the corner, there is a huge plain glass window. This one stretches all the way across the front. From one end to the other. The view outside is amazing, as there are sky scrapers all around. But that’s not the key focus here. Following the window, to the right side, there is another wall. This one is plain with one exception. There are a lot of picture frames. But these frames don’t have pictures in them. They have some sort of paper in them. As if they are diplomas of some sort. They are posted all over the right side wall. And about two feet away from the wall, is a desk. This desk has a decent amount of papers on it as well. But these papers are different then the ones on the wall. These are stacks of papers, as well as file folders and binders. Behind in the back is a plan wall. Nothing on it at all, except for the door in the middle of the wall. Moving to the center of the room, there is a chair. There is a women sitting in the chair. She is fully dressed in a suit, with a skirt instead of dress pants. She is right in front of an odd looking couch. It’s like a one armed couch, but the arm is angled as a pillow. With all the clues added up into one, the conclusion is that this has to be a therapy room. Calvin Lee, being seen for the first time since losing to Kurt Burton two weeks ago, is on this couch. He’s laying down, head on the arm of the couch. He looks up at the women, and speaks very calmly in a low voice, seeing it’s only them two and it’s really silent in this room.
Calvin Lee: You just don’t seem to get it. There is nothing wrong with me. I just am here to figure out why I lost to Kurt Burton. It’s Kurt Burton. I would have no problem if it was like Reverend Shadow or Wayne McGurk but this is Kurt Burton we are talking about. Is there something wrong with me?
Therapist: We are going to dig deep into your thoughts and figure out what is bothering you. It sounds like you are very ashamed of yourself over this lose. But are you sure it’s this loss along, and not something else? Because I think it’s something else.
Something else my ass. It’s just one thing. I lost to Kurt Burton. I went into this match being the favourite. I went into this match knowing I would blow this bunghole away, and I lost. I lost my match. I lost my chance at being world champion. I lost pretty much everything I’ve been working so hard on for these past few months. Why does this person seem to think it’s something else? When it’s so damn simple. I never should have came here…
Calvin Lee: Nope, it’s just the problem that I lost to Kurt Burton. Simple as that. Yes I feel ashamed. I’m ashamed I lost. I’m pissed that I lost. I’m upset that I have to wait even longer to be champion. I’m so worthy of being champion, and I lost to a cocky nobody who thinks he’s a somebody.
Therapist: Are you sure that it’s not you who is the nobody?
Did she just say I’m a nobody? Did she just say that CALVIN LEE is a nobody? I am not a nobody. I am Calvin Lee. I’ve won many, many championships before. I came to WFWF as a champion. I may not have won anything here but that’s only because I haven’t had my shot, until now. And I blew it. Calvin Lee is not a nobody. And I’m going to make sure everyone knows it.
Calvin Lee: Did you just say that? Because I know in my heart that I am a somebody. In my debut match, I almost beat everyone in the new breed battle royal. I was the forth last one remaining. When it came down to only four left, I was still standing. In my debut match. I almost won. Of course I don’t think that I am the nobody. What a stupid question.
Therapist: There is no such thing as a stupid question.
Calvin Lee: Obviously there is, because you just asked one.
Therapist: Okay, how about this then. Why are you so ashamed of losing to Kurt Burton? Is that a stupid question.
Calvin Lee: Um, yes.
Of course it is. How long has he been here? What, maybe four months? And he’s already being told he’s great. That just shows you how great the WFWF is these days. Someone can come in and have only a couple months experience and he’s already great. Oh wow how the WFWF has hit a all new low.
Calvin Lee: Kurt Burton isn’t great at all. He’s only good because they ran out of people. He’s a random added into this tournament. He only won because I lost somehow. Maybe I underestimated him. Maybe I slipped. Maybe I figured I’d make this count look close and miscalculated the three count. Maybe I just lost. I have no idea. That’s why I am here. Stop asking pointless questions and just tell me why I lost.
Therapist: Why are you getting so angry?
Because you’re a bitch who won’t shut up with these mind tricks.
Calvin Lee: Because you aren’t doing your job. I paid you to help me find out how I lost. Not how it’s effecting me. Yes I’m angry that I lost. I’m pissed off that I lost. I’ve never been so angry in my life. I left the WFWF to calm down, I was so pissed off. I guarantee you if I wrestled right now, I’d be out to hurt someone, not win a title. That’s why I’m angry. Okay? Now do your job dammit!
Therapist: I think you are underestimating Kurt. He’s a good wrestler. He beat you fair and square.
This bitch is asking for it. I did not lose fair and square. I will not allow myself to believe that.
Calvin Lee: No I did not. I had an off night, maybe he just caught me off guard. Maybe he cheated. Maybe, just maybe, I wasn’t thinking straight. I don’t know what it was, but I can tell you, I did not lose fair and square. Period.
Therapist: You know, denial is the first step to acceptance.
Omg, stop it with the damn mind tricks. I did not lose fair and square. Calvin Lee doesn’t lose to Kurt Burton. Period. This isn’t helping. I’m just getting even more pissed off then before. I think I might explode.
Calvin Lee: You know what, this was a waste of time. I came here to find out HOW I lost to Kurt Burton. Obviously I came to the wrong person. You just made things worse. Thanks a lot. Here’s your damn money. I’m out of here.
The pissed off Calvin Lee gets up from the couch, and stumps over to the door of the room. He opens the door and walks out, and slams the door behind him.
And so Calvin Lee continues his quest to rebuild himself. His attempt to see a therapist blew up in flames and now he’s worse off them before. Will he ever be the same again?
The Disappearance
Ever since his loss, Calvin Lee has not been seen. No one knows where he went. No one knows why he left, they all assume it has to deal with his losing to Kurt Burton. They have no idea where he went, and when he will be back. He’s been lost in his mind. Lost in his soul. He has no idea what went wrong. He has no idea why he lost. Or how he lost. He just knows he lost. He’s out on a quest to rebuild himself. And he’s starting out this rebuilding process in the mind first.
A room. Obviously. This room is rather small, but not too small. Looking out to the left, there is a gigantic shelf. This shelf is full of books. It stretches all the way down the left wall. From one end to the other. All of books. Following the book shelf, to the corner, there is a huge plain glass window. This one stretches all the way across the front. From one end to the other. The view outside is amazing, as there are sky scrapers all around. But that’s not the key focus here. Following the window, to the right side, there is another wall. This one is plain with one exception. There are a lot of picture frames. But these frames don’t have pictures in them. They have some sort of paper in them. As if they are diplomas of some sort. They are posted all over the right side wall. And about two feet away from the wall, is a desk. This desk has a decent amount of papers on it as well. But these papers are different then the ones on the wall. These are stacks of papers, as well as file folders and binders. Behind in the back is a plan wall. Nothing on it at all, except for the door in the middle of the wall. Moving to the center of the room, there is a chair. There is a women sitting in the chair. She is fully dressed in a suit, with a skirt instead of dress pants. She is right in front of an odd looking couch. It’s like a one armed couch, but the arm is angled as a pillow. With all the clues added up into one, the conclusion is that this has to be a therapy room. Calvin Lee, being seen for the first time since losing to Kurt Burton two weeks ago, is on this couch. He’s laying down, head on the arm of the couch. He looks up at the women, and speaks very calmly in a low voice, seeing it’s only them two and it’s really silent in this room.
Calvin Lee: You just don’t seem to get it. There is nothing wrong with me. I just am here to figure out why I lost to Kurt Burton. It’s Kurt Burton. I would have no problem if it was like Reverend Shadow or Wayne McGurk but this is Kurt Burton we are talking about. Is there something wrong with me?
Therapist: We are going to dig deep into your thoughts and figure out what is bothering you. It sounds like you are very ashamed of yourself over this lose. But are you sure it’s this loss along, and not something else? Because I think it’s something else.
Something else my ass. It’s just one thing. I lost to Kurt Burton. I went into this match being the favourite. I went into this match knowing I would blow this bunghole away, and I lost. I lost my match. I lost my chance at being world champion. I lost pretty much everything I’ve been working so hard on for these past few months. Why does this person seem to think it’s something else? When it’s so damn simple. I never should have came here…
Calvin Lee: Nope, it’s just the problem that I lost to Kurt Burton. Simple as that. Yes I feel ashamed. I’m ashamed I lost. I’m pissed that I lost. I’m upset that I have to wait even longer to be champion. I’m so worthy of being champion, and I lost to a cocky nobody who thinks he’s a somebody.
Therapist: Are you sure that it’s not you who is the nobody?
Did she just say I’m a nobody? Did she just say that CALVIN LEE is a nobody? I am not a nobody. I am Calvin Lee. I’ve won many, many championships before. I came to WFWF as a champion. I may not have won anything here but that’s only because I haven’t had my shot, until now. And I blew it. Calvin Lee is not a nobody. And I’m going to make sure everyone knows it.
Calvin Lee: Did you just say that? Because I know in my heart that I am a somebody. In my debut match, I almost beat everyone in the new breed battle royal. I was the forth last one remaining. When it came down to only four left, I was still standing. In my debut match. I almost won. Of course I don’t think that I am the nobody. What a stupid question.
Therapist: There is no such thing as a stupid question.
Calvin Lee: Obviously there is, because you just asked one.
Therapist: Okay, how about this then. Why are you so ashamed of losing to Kurt Burton? Is that a stupid question.
Calvin Lee: Um, yes.
Of course it is. How long has he been here? What, maybe four months? And he’s already being told he’s great. That just shows you how great the WFWF is these days. Someone can come in and have only a couple months experience and he’s already great. Oh wow how the WFWF has hit a all new low.
Calvin Lee: Kurt Burton isn’t great at all. He’s only good because they ran out of people. He’s a random added into this tournament. He only won because I lost somehow. Maybe I underestimated him. Maybe I slipped. Maybe I figured I’d make this count look close and miscalculated the three count. Maybe I just lost. I have no idea. That’s why I am here. Stop asking pointless questions and just tell me why I lost.
Therapist: Why are you getting so angry?
Because you’re a bitch who won’t shut up with these mind tricks.
Calvin Lee: Because you aren’t doing your job. I paid you to help me find out how I lost. Not how it’s effecting me. Yes I’m angry that I lost. I’m pissed off that I lost. I’ve never been so angry in my life. I left the WFWF to calm down, I was so pissed off. I guarantee you if I wrestled right now, I’d be out to hurt someone, not win a title. That’s why I’m angry. Okay? Now do your job dammit!
Therapist: I think you are underestimating Kurt. He’s a good wrestler. He beat you fair and square.
This bitch is asking for it. I did not lose fair and square. I will not allow myself to believe that.
Calvin Lee: No I did not. I had an off night, maybe he just caught me off guard. Maybe he cheated. Maybe, just maybe, I wasn’t thinking straight. I don’t know what it was, but I can tell you, I did not lose fair and square. Period.
Therapist: You know, denial is the first step to acceptance.
Omg, stop it with the damn mind tricks. I did not lose fair and square. Calvin Lee doesn’t lose to Kurt Burton. Period. This isn’t helping. I’m just getting even more pissed off then before. I think I might explode.
Calvin Lee: You know what, this was a waste of time. I came here to find out HOW I lost to Kurt Burton. Obviously I came to the wrong person. You just made things worse. Thanks a lot. Here’s your damn money. I’m out of here.
The pissed off Calvin Lee gets up from the couch, and stumps over to the door of the room. He opens the door and walks out, and slams the door behind him.
And so Calvin Lee continues his quest to rebuild himself. His attempt to see a therapist blew up in flames and now he’s worse off them before. Will he ever be the same again?
