Post by Devilkiller on Oct 4, 2019 0:18:03 GMT -5
Destroy What You Enjoy Monologue: Dream On.
Devilkiller is seen sitting in a room compromising of only a mirror and a red lightbulb overhead, his facepaint glistening off of the light and reflecting from the mirror. He takes a deep, shakey breath, before looking into the camera.
At Hell I was humiliated in front the world by Cameron Stone. I was left a mess in the middle of that ring. I was left just a shamble of what this last run has been for me. I've been working and working trying to get the very best out of me and yet, somehow when the time comes for me to have my best come out I always let myself down.
He sighs, looking away from the camera and slamming his fist on his knee. The Hardcore King leans back in his chair while shaking his head, trying to keep his focus.
It should've been me Cameron Stone. I know I sound like a broken record at this point but I don't care because dammit, it SHOULD'VE BEEN ME! I worked harder for that win than you did Cameron. I thought smarter for that win than you did Cameron. I was just RIGHT THERE and I just, UGH!
Devilkiller stands up and slings the chair across the room, the metallic crash bouncing off the wall and onto the floor. He now paces back and forth, wall to wall.
I wanted that win. I needed that win. I needed it so bad not even you would understand Cam. But you are the only one who could understand.
Remember your missed opportunity at SuperBrawl where you literally couldn't even hang with anyone else? You were just thrown in based on luck? Remember how humbled you felt? Remember how you needed that win for validity? To show the others you could do it? THAT WAS ME!
But I didn't need it for validity, I have that. Being in a history book, even if it's now behind someone else, has its merit. I have the validity. I didn't need it to show the others I could do it. They saw me beat Penny Shannon at the biggest stage of them all. No no, I needed it purely to gain something. To gain a notch on the belt.
I know we have some time before, but incase you weren't keeping score Survival of the Fittest is coming up. What's it going to look like if I come in after beating these stars? Penny Shannon? Check. Cameron Stone? Check. That's two people who have beaten the current world champion right there, what makes me any different? I needed it to believe in myself dammit.
Now look at me. The lines on my face are definitely showing at 28, my bones feel the creaks after the crazy dives I do, and my head feels like a piñata that keeps getting hit around with a baseball bat. I don't believe in myself. I just don't. I'm not Jayson Sykes where that's my whole motto. I'm a lot like you where I'm a realist, and the realist in me tells me dammit you just were the better man that night.
That's okay. I know I can't beat everyone all of the time, but all I need is to beat everyone some of the time. Their off days, their days they underestimate me, their days where they just show up only to save face. That's all I need.
Cameron Stone, I'm going to get you, on your best day or your worst day, because now I know how to win.
Sometimes, you have to lose to know how to win.
With that Devilkiller snaps around and swings a punch straight at the mirror, absolutely shattering it as the camera focus' on the broken shards of glass in the floor as it fades to black.
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OOC: This was fun. I needed it. I got to vent a little bit. I've been having a rough time lately just grasping things around here it's not even funny. I'm trying my damnedest to become a good writer, not on the levels of the very best but I want to be able to beat people like Penny Shannon twice in four matches with her at her best. If I can do that, I'm fairly happy with myself. I wanna hang with people like Mesh and Rich and not just, you know, be the solid one that everyone says "meh it's okay."
So do me a favor, everyone reading this, drop it below or shoot me a PM, give me some tips and advice on making RP's better. The one I had written for this was literally gonna kill me.
And to Cameron Stone, I don't know what you want others to know, but I'll tell you I hope everything gets better. I wish for nothing but the best for you and your family. Keep being a standup guy and if you need to talk, you know where to find me. Stay true to yourself man.
To everyone else, thanks for reading, and if you do it, thanks for any advice you drop my way. I appreciate it.
Devilkiller is seen sitting in a room compromising of only a mirror and a red lightbulb overhead, his facepaint glistening off of the light and reflecting from the mirror. He takes a deep, shakey breath, before looking into the camera.
At Hell I was humiliated in front the world by Cameron Stone. I was left a mess in the middle of that ring. I was left just a shamble of what this last run has been for me. I've been working and working trying to get the very best out of me and yet, somehow when the time comes for me to have my best come out I always let myself down.
He sighs, looking away from the camera and slamming his fist on his knee. The Hardcore King leans back in his chair while shaking his head, trying to keep his focus.
It should've been me Cameron Stone. I know I sound like a broken record at this point but I don't care because dammit, it SHOULD'VE BEEN ME! I worked harder for that win than you did Cameron. I thought smarter for that win than you did Cameron. I was just RIGHT THERE and I just, UGH!
Devilkiller stands up and slings the chair across the room, the metallic crash bouncing off the wall and onto the floor. He now paces back and forth, wall to wall.
I wanted that win. I needed that win. I needed it so bad not even you would understand Cam. But you are the only one who could understand.
Remember your missed opportunity at SuperBrawl where you literally couldn't even hang with anyone else? You were just thrown in based on luck? Remember how humbled you felt? Remember how you needed that win for validity? To show the others you could do it? THAT WAS ME!
But I didn't need it for validity, I have that. Being in a history book, even if it's now behind someone else, has its merit. I have the validity. I didn't need it to show the others I could do it. They saw me beat Penny Shannon at the biggest stage of them all. No no, I needed it purely to gain something. To gain a notch on the belt.
I know we have some time before, but incase you weren't keeping score Survival of the Fittest is coming up. What's it going to look like if I come in after beating these stars? Penny Shannon? Check. Cameron Stone? Check. That's two people who have beaten the current world champion right there, what makes me any different? I needed it to believe in myself dammit.
Now look at me. The lines on my face are definitely showing at 28, my bones feel the creaks after the crazy dives I do, and my head feels like a piñata that keeps getting hit around with a baseball bat. I don't believe in myself. I just don't. I'm not Jayson Sykes where that's my whole motto. I'm a lot like you where I'm a realist, and the realist in me tells me dammit you just were the better man that night.
That's okay. I know I can't beat everyone all of the time, but all I need is to beat everyone some of the time. Their off days, their days they underestimate me, their days where they just show up only to save face. That's all I need.
Cameron Stone, I'm going to get you, on your best day or your worst day, because now I know how to win.
Sometimes, you have to lose to know how to win.
With that Devilkiller snaps around and swings a punch straight at the mirror, absolutely shattering it as the camera focus' on the broken shards of glass in the floor as it fades to black.
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OOC: This was fun. I needed it. I got to vent a little bit. I've been having a rough time lately just grasping things around here it's not even funny. I'm trying my damnedest to become a good writer, not on the levels of the very best but I want to be able to beat people like Penny Shannon twice in four matches with her at her best. If I can do that, I'm fairly happy with myself. I wanna hang with people like Mesh and Rich and not just, you know, be the solid one that everyone says "meh it's okay."
So do me a favor, everyone reading this, drop it below or shoot me a PM, give me some tips and advice on making RP's better. The one I had written for this was literally gonna kill me.
And to Cameron Stone, I don't know what you want others to know, but I'll tell you I hope everything gets better. I wish for nothing but the best for you and your family. Keep being a standup guy and if you need to talk, you know where to find me. Stay true to yourself man.
To everyone else, thanks for reading, and if you do it, thanks for any advice you drop my way. I appreciate it.
